free

i'm not afraid of the shadows anymore
they cannot limit us
because i know the one who makes
all
things
new

listen

I heard you in the tender

moment

of giving when you filled

their hearts with joy

and the fullness of vulnerability

was palpable

with tears and sunlight

beautiful hearts ripped open

and on display

in the parking lot

I grabbed that love

I won’t let go

like david

there was that fear that  coffee

would stain me

into something plain and

that the rags would define

me instead of something slightly more interesting

or beautiful.

it is painful facing

self

I hit the floor

a clang I felt over and over

reverberating humiliation

breakers that pulled me away from

the hand with my name

written in, I imagine,

green ink

it is rain and sun

that grows me

it is presence and

life-light that

expands even my subconscious

self-limitations

like david

I am learning worship

in the field

hemmed in by you
like david
I am fighting the beasts
with the help
of the almighty

feb 7

give me your shadows

give me your all

all I require is

that you show up

when I call

loose ends

my shoes are untied
and i am waiting
for your
smile
not because i'm helpless
i promise
i just like it when
you're near enough to tie
my loose ends

Did you learn to love?

When I finally get there

When I finally get to stand before you

When you finally ask me,

“Did you learn to love, Roberta?”

I want, desperately, to say yes

I want to talk about how your love

Infiltrated and mixed within me

Stirred me up and woke me

To beauty and honesty

I want to say your name

To say that you are my love

That I learned from you

When you found me

And that this blend

This give and take

This union changed my eyes

Changed my lips

Changed my hands

Changed my heart

The beauty of you

Taught me how to truly love others

The beauty of you

Tied my heart

My body

My mind

To you