I knew you'd see me

“no one can offer my vulnerability, but me,”
I echoed, philosophically
that awful murky mess of feelings and thoughts
was sorted haphazardly in front of you
in my eyes
told you exactly what I knew
that excitement of looking at you, squarely

but it sounded hollow to me.

intimate pauses

the best is when you
lean a little
forward, watching
anticipating my next word
like those intimate pauses
between notes

new honesty

his reaction was so pronounced
anger and hurt
grasping
for the rules of this new honesty

less of the same

adulthood and mutual relationships
aren't yet in these
shattering, fractal frames

and although it's a fantastic dream
i guess just an ancillary goal

cause if you take too many steps at once
the film moves backward
stroboscopically

careless

so worried about details
she stared at him across
from her
he was leaning with a smirk
intently watching her while she read
fluorescent lights and white walls
the barren dorm added to the gloom
he freaking used, “gloriousnicity”
in a poem critique

A Childish Thing

She made him tie her shoes
She made him regress back to innocence
“One day,” she whispered,
"I’ll let you know the colors I dream in.”
He held her hand
A childish thing, really
Going back to the lack they both felt

Oct. 6, 2010

1
lost control
only when
you asked
how I'd
been
2
the scalloped potatoes
with salsa
didn’t work
but I do love
her crazy
3
that sky
open and breathe
we’ll be bright
again

Safe Enough

maybe I’ll feel safe enough
to exhale my thoughts
to stop
tiptoeing around deeper things.
maybe.